im sorry i never like talk to anyone anymore lol...
and all my deviations are like PIXEL REMIXED x3409234 or SECRET 23239898
so i dont bother looking anymore.

which kind of defeats the purpose.
but oh well.

i have to avoid the kitchen
i think this is like my 2390809th piece of gum today
i lost 2 pounds yesterday
cuz im fasting
but my hunger is trying to get me down
BUT I WONT LET IT MUHAHAHAHAHAAAAA.coighack.,

i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat i must not eat skinny girls dont eat skinny girls dont eat skinny girls dont eat skinny girls dont eat calories betray me but empty never does calories betray me calories betray me calories betray me calories betray me food is disgusting food is dsgusting food is disgusting i refuse to be a slave i refuse to be a slave i refuse to be a slave perfection of the body is an art perfection of the body is an art perfection of the body is an art perfection of the body is an art i am stronger than them i am stronger than them i am stronger than them i will be thin i will be thin i will be thin i will be beautiful i wil be beautiful i will be beautiful


tomorrow is my friend laura's birthday
i was going to paint her a picture
but everytime i walk into the art room i just dont feel like it.
im a bad friend ):
i'll buy her a necklace or something...

i think i am getting better with my depression and stuff. i mean i still feel kind of sad sometimes but its like almost gone. like its really nice. i havent cut myself since the end of september so thats like more than a month. like practically 2 months. im so full of win!

when i get to 2 months im going to tell one of my new friends because i havent told anyone until now and it just kind of makes me happy inside cuz i finally beat it. i hope i can wear a bathing suit by summertime

does anyone actually read these things like completely? LOL. cuz i know sometimes when i read blogs i just kind of skim it. but thats on websites. if i dont wanna read someone's dA blog i just click the X lol.

oh yeah so my all-state audition went alright. i was kind of wicked tense for the first part of the piece but i did the scales perfect (two octaves of D and Eb in tune!) and i think i did good for the last part of the piece & the sight reading mumbo jumbo pumpbo hungry hungry hippos.
lol it wuz funny cause there were these 7th or maybe immature 8th graders outside listening to everyone and my private teacher was like 'they were like "wow she can hit the high notes good!"' well it was something like that but it was funny cuz its like WELL I WOULD HOPE SO you know what i mean? i hope so cuz i hate explaining things its annoying.




i ramble a lot.


SUMONE LOVE ME!